Taking a break tomorrow

My first in a long time. 

I trade childcare with a local mom, but out of the multiple times I’ve had her daughter while she was at work, I’ve only handed her my daughter once. When I had an IEP meeting for my son, and she offered to take my daughter, Katie.

Tonight I called her, and asked if tomorrow would work for Katie to come over.  It was fine, with no time limit.

And I sit nervous.  Uneasy.

For no other reason than just because I never take a break for myself.  I’m rarely ever without at least one child.

And tomorrow I’m suppose to be childless.

*big breath!*

I almost emailed a father who needed me to babysit tomorrow, to let him know I was free afterall….. and I deleted it.

I need to take a day to myself.

But I did stall deleting the email, hesitated a few times.

This is odd….

So tomorrow morning I’m working horses – yay!!

And in the afternoon, I’m going to go sit down at soul-food books and relax.  Relax.

Relax without children to watch over.

Relax without… without anything.  Relax.

Wow – –

So I am childless from 9:30am on tomorrow….

Still trying to grasp this idea. I really need to start taking every Friday to myself during the day.  It dawned on me today, that without any children from 9:30am – 3pm I could at least spend that time writing my book, if nothing else.  And that would be a wonderful thing 🙂