Appauling

It is shocking to me, the severe lack of respect, consideration, and thought some have for others.  At some point you give up, don’t you?  It has been quite some time since I have felt this bitter towards anyone, this crushed, to feel hurt this deep.  And it isn’t the action taken, it is the enormous lack of consideration and care before taking that action when knowing full well the feelings another would feel, and just-not-care.  The "I got what I wanted" attitude with a smile, especially when it happens far more often then not.  I am certainly not cut out for turning a cold shoulder and ‘dealing with it anyway’.  Definitely not a quality I have.

I quit.  I am done.  I dont care.  You win. 

I have lost the heart, the drive, and the desire.  This was the breaking point when things were so very raw as it was.  Sad and disappointing.

Scary to feel this hurt to the point of such anger towards someone.  Anger is not good.

Such is life.  Oh well.  Life goes on and new dreams are developed, I have learned.  This in itself is not a bad thing.  Old paths are ended and new directions are formed, aren’t they?  Of course they are.  Or am I just trying to come up with an excuse and feel better….. *big sigh*