I’m an Idiot.

I don’t know why I keep expecting people to care about me.  They don’t.  I wish I didn’t care about them.  Things don’t mean as much to other people as they do to me.  What’s wrong with me?

Maybe all I deserve is poor treatment, because that’s all I seem to get.  I don’t understand why I keep getting used and shoved aside like a fucking afterthought.   They use me, then don’t care whether I’m alive or dead.   Maybe I should be dead.