It rushes back in

I can’t listen to this without being thrown back in time. Not because the song is from 30 years ago, but because it’s just that kind of song that makes you long for a time when things were just … right.

Now I have to stay on top of everything, every thought, emotion, and choice so I no longer get overwhelmed by the shit I hold back and push away.

Life, for me, has this way of going all FUBAR if I take a moment to exhale. I’ve done a lot of soul searching and tons of forgiving and giving up, but I still can’t take my eyes off the road.

That song though, it reminds me there was a sweet few years where nothing went wrong and everything seemed to go my way. I haven’t had that since I was 18.