I am Confused!

Okay so he got panicked from my reaction after eating and suffering some server stomach pain and so he asked me if he could have a few shots of Vodka.
I don’t recall replying…I mean why bother when I didn’t have the strength in me to react and he was gonna go ahead and have a shot or two…turns out he had half the bottle.

Sometime while I was sleeping, he cleaned up the flat. Didn’t hear anything when he cleaned up our room and I was dozed off…

Went to bed rather peeved on Saturday night but on Sunday he was his loving self. Continuously kissed me on my forehead and was very attentive.

I am so confused and don’t know what to do!

I mean of course I hate how things are when he has been drinking and how he turns to drinking to self-medicate, but there are times when he is a great person and so loving and just wonderful.

So maybe I should work on those 6 Guidelines to Life and just see what happens.