Epiphany…

Always make sure the man you love needs you more than you need him. 

Okay so I love my husband!

I know I don’t need him! But every day I am wanting to let got more and I just don’t know how to do it.

Last night I got home and at the entrance to our bedroom were Daisy petals and on the bed was a chocolate bar, a Daisy, a Redbull (that I bought a few days ago) and a yoghurt (which I had also bought a few days ago) and on my bedside table was a vase dilled with daisies.

Now daisies are not my fav flower, but I guess the though counts.

He was sitting in the study finishing off work, so I want to say thank you. He was stoned and on the desk was an open packet of cannabis edible gummy sweets

Yummy Gummies - 20mg

By the time I got into bed after putting the laundry into the washing machine and making sure my outfit for work was ironed (I knew that there would be no electricity when I woke up this morning, so I ironed what needed to be ironed) he was snoring.

Right now, I am hating being married! I am feeling so alone.

Lately I keep thinking about the week I spent in the clinic after I had an emotional breakdown. When I came back home from there, I had a new lease on life. I need to hold onto that.

Yesterday when I met up with an old friend to chat. I told her how happy I have been since the bariatric op and how this new energy in me and this new sense of happiness is making me want to live life. After last night I kinda feel as if that was all just talk and I am ready to just call up in ball and cry.

This morning I weighed myself. I know I haven’t lost as much weight as I should and I know I should be working harder on losing the weight, but I am feeling happy with myself.

Pumpkin Type Halloween 99.5kg

So, in a few days I have lost half a kg. Wish it was more, but at least I am losing and not putting on.

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February 15, 2023

just remember the slower it comes off, the easier it is to stay off.

February 16, 2023

😘 👍

But it does become a lil disheartening when you hear of other people and how they lost so much so quickly. But then I think about my sister and how she lost a lot quickly (but she was really really big) and then she put on a lot of weight again and for the past few years has been trying to get it off. So, I guess we all just gotta do what is good for you!

February 20, 2023

Any weight loss is a good thing…you are doing it :-). I have been stuck at the same weight for months.  I really had intentions to lose some weight before summer but that hasn’t happened.  I am ready for the weather to warm up so I can start back riding my bike every day.

Those gummies will kick your ass.  I ate one when I was in Colorado at my son’s house and when it kicked in I was so high I had to go to bed.  I hated how it felt…it scared me.  I can’t imagine wanting to feel that way.

February 20, 2023

I am so not looking forward to winter. Today has been a real rainy day and I have hated it!

A few months ago, I tried those gummies. Now of course I was stupid and ate about 3/4 of a packet in one sitting and had a biscuit or two as well so that got me tripping and I ended up throwing up. Of course, I slept well that night, but I have vowed never to put anything cannibus related into my mouth.