good thing quit isn’t

… in my vocabulary.

I’m starting to dwell on things. I just spent the last hour wanting to cut so much, I wanted to rip my skin open. I wanted to hurt and hurt and hurt. I want to get it out of the inside and make it the outside. I want to send it all away. I have to start packing. and I’m in no way shape or form ready to move. but, What must be done must be done.

Honestly, I’m getting really close to putting myself into therapy. But let’s see if we can get this ship turned around first.

BTW, No, I didn’t cut today. let’s see if static X cheers me up.

-Mark