Damnit to hell

I cut. All these years… and I did it… I’m fairly damn well disgusted with myself, but I suppose I’m not suprised. I’m just really frustrated because my defense mechanisms failed me. I’ve cut before, I won’t deny it. but I’d thought I’d do better. oh well, now it’s an opportunity to beat myself up further. aren’t I a damn work of art tonight. oh well… I’ll have to really look at what triggered me. time to really take care of myself. Sorry people. I’m just going to have to try harder.

Lady Dechala

January 3, 2005

Think about what triggered it yes but don’t beat yourself up dear. I hope I helped you at least a little last night/this morning. I’m always here if you need me,always. *hugs* Love ya!

ryn: And yes my dear you really should put your new years resolutions up here.It makes them more real when you see them on the screen. *hugs*

Ryn: I know and I appreciate that I was the first person that you called.I’m so glad I could be there for you:-) Im glad you’re doing better.Just take it slow and all will work itself out dear *HUGS*