second virginity

Well. . . . . .So yeah now that I’ve had my surgery, I am technically a virgin again. Yay?

I’m scared of that honestly. I mean I know its nothing at all, simply because virginity is a mental milestone.  I broke my hymen when I was 12 with one of those fat markers. I lost my virginity to a guy when I was 14 while watching treasure planet. . . . I was more interested in the movie 🙁   So i’ve never been particularly concerned with the whole Idea, but now It’s like a second chance. maybe this time will be special ?  maybe it will be great! Maybe It will blow my mind? 

I’m scared to hook up with anyone. Not for fear of it hurting. But for fear that it will suck!

how awful would it be to get a second chance at making it special, and both times sucked!

kiss the frog!