This is 3000 (part 3)

At 2:14 am on August 30th, Spree Suga and myself severed ties with the relationship. The tension and distance build up caused it, in addition to the trip itself being subpar altogether. It wasnt a sour breakup yet a painful one. I really liked Spree Suga but at the same time I wasnt happy with the distance at all. I hated it and I needed her here with her just as she needs me there with her. Its so much, and she was able to see my life in entirety and how people love and cling to me plenty. She also didnt like things about me and Miss Germany, which I considered a "NO THREAT" to our relationship. Indeed, we had sex but in my mind the relationship was over so it didnt matter to me either way.

Of course, it was wrong but that was my mindframe. I know I should know better, but I am getting there. Spree Suga and myself didnt talk for a couple of days, then back to conversations and we established that we kinda wanted to work things out and take it slow. I am still single, but we talk to put things in perspective. She wants me to come to Ohio where she goes to school to look into HER life, which I am going to do anyday now. But after we broke up, I felt some sense of accomplishment by Miss Germany. She seemed so happy. We started to hang out plenty and continuously have a sexual relationship with one another. Hanging out and spending nights in and nights out together. I have a habit of having sex with Miss Germany without a condom, and then skeet-skeet in her poonani. I dont wear condoms much, because I am not trying to seem like a MANDINGO, but honestly…. those little bitches dont fit me. I mean, they bust or just ended up being tight and uncomfortable on my dick, so I be like fuck it. I think Miss Germany like it without a condom although, she doesnt know I skeet-skeet in her poonani at all. I bee scared as fuck, but I am too lazy to pull out. Spree Suga doesnt know that I still hang with Miss Germany nor does she know that I have sex with her about 5 times out of the week.

Honestly, mentally I am not happy still emotionally. I need someone else in my life. I just dont trust Miss Germany. I dont trust her with my heart anymore. We talk a lot and people think we are back together, but I have no intentions of getting back into a relaitonship with her at all. As far as Spree Suga is concerned, I dont know. I feel guilty about the shit I did, but at the same time…. I would need her here. I plan on taking the trip to Ohio soon, but Long Distance is not my thang. My life….. is in control, but also…… outta-outta control

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