been along time

i cant believe how long its been since ive written here.  its funny how fast time flies by.  we have had lots going on though, one kid would move out and another move in, then we have been babysitting alot too, so not much time to do stuff for myself.  in the last month we have lost a dear friend of mine, dennis, and hubbys sister lost her husband.  a few months ago we lost one of hubbies uncles, due to a mistake made by a nurse.  he would still be here if it wasnt for that. 

im glad that spring is finally here though, the winter was really starting to get to me.  ive been eating alot of ice cause i went off my iron pills, ive also gone off my hormones so am dealing with hot flashes somthing awful. ive broken a few teeth cause of the ice and am in the process of getting them fixed up which isnt fun at all.  so im trying to curb the ice eating, but its hard.  ive ordered a book called dr bobs guide to female hormones, or somthing like that so am hoping to find a natural solution to my messed up hormones which is causging me all kinds of problems.  i cant sleep, i get up practically every hour on the hour to go pee pee, somtimes every half hour or so, and its bout to drive me crazy. 

my days now consists of getting up a bit after six to watch my grandson, then about four thirty i take him to a sitter and go to work, come home fix hubs lunch and watch tv for a few hours before going to bed.  rae has found a good man and they seem to be pretty serious.  he has put in an offer on a house out in the country and if they get it she will be moving in with him, so i wont be babysitting if that happens.  i will miss the boys alot but want to start doing volunteer work or somthing to give back to god.  god has been soooooo good to us, and i love him more and more all the time.  i want to give back to him before i get to old to do so.  i only work for maybe three hours a night, so would have lots of time to do some charity work if i wasnt babysitting. 

it sure is pretty outside too, with all the flowers and trees blooming.  i just hope the cold is gone for good.  i want to get out walking again, and riding my bike.  im soooooo out of shape, and have gained some weight.  my shorts are so tight i cant stand putting them on and i dont want to have to buy new ones, so its time to get off my duff and get some of this weight off.  later on im going to get into the basement and try to get it finished cleaning.  im so close now.  i have a treadmill that is covered with stuff and want to dig it out and use it again too.  a couple full days and i could be done down there. 

well cant think of much else to say so guess ill go for now.  ill try to not be so long getting back here, but i just dont get online like i used to. i went a year without a puter and got used to not having it i suppose. well have a good day diary, bless u and see you next time