Down

You know, trying to “see the good” and accepting “life” is hard, well for me.

I can’t accept myself anymore. Worst of all, I don’t remember when I became so ugly and unappealing. I think I have answered my own questions on why people don’t talk to me in public and I always feel like some creepy old guy.

I just don’t like my looks. The old man ugly stick hit me hard. It didn’t help that my ex left me for a man who is almost 10 years older than me.

I find myself just wanting to accept that my time has come and go and I hope that I can find a job where I no longer have to deal with anyone.