Both Dead and Alive Inside
The past year has been shit but there have been some highlights. I started out living in Athens with the biggest POS named K. I moved to Jack sonville alone with my dog Monroe in March. It was a tiny home. It was quiet but wasn’t a “home”. I started the new year with a new job and Covid. I swear some days even 11 months later…I have symptoms. New job is great….I decided to step pack into a lower position and I make more money…less hours…it was a no brainer.
I dated this guy in January February (even tho I was still living with K) I will call him Bub. Bub was everything I wanted so I thought. I make stupid decsions when it comes to relationships. Always have. Then suddenly Bub decided he didn’t want a relationship…like literally on Valentines Day and so guess what I did…. I started seeing his best friend. We went to supper quiet and few and he stayed with me in Jville however once I asked for a label…he started not coming around as much. It was fun while it lasted.. Fuck Bub. He made me cry. But of course I moved on..
Met and went on some dates in June and July….no many guys out there that don’t work….which blows my mind.
Then…then…from FB dating…on August 6th I met Chd. We chatted a few days and then he wanted to meet me on a Monday…I stood him up…kinda, I told him that he needed to call and wake me up before he left his house. He didn’t and I slept.
We ended up meeting the next day and everything is history…we have been together everyday since. He lived around an hour and a half from jville. I came to his house because he has a home and land. But let me tell you…he has fucking baggage. A bitch named Steph Anie and 2 grown fish kids. His daughter is 19..has 1.5 yr old twin boys…still living with Momma… dead beat baby daddy..different race….a son that is 17 and a sexual predator. Im not lying…this is for another time to explain..maybe later tonight but his son scares me… he is mentally fucked up and no one cares.. Chd is a good ol boy and he is ashamed. Not his words but mine. He doesn’t like to talk about it. Ex wife is a cunt. We have had words and will have some more. Dislike her.
Chd is working on us. I am trying to be patient and forgiving…which is not something I have ever been. I want him to make more romantic gestures. Doesn’t everyone.
Anyway..I will write more later. I also have a 1 yr old British bulldog named LillyPig. Monroe is almost 8.