so much for sleep

I will probably be all over the place. I’m so wound up, and the night went south fast. Chance is sure a monster tried to get in his window. I’m not sure what happened or what to believe an animal at his window, but wonder if it was his mom. I finally got him to sleep by me. But I can’t sleep, and my mind is going so fast.

Chance headed to bed about 8:30 about a hour later. He ran, I mean ran, into the office and said someone is trying to get in my window. I put him in the safe room (tornado shelter build in the middle of the house). I changed the code after she left. And went ahead and called the sheriff’s office. I went out the back door and eased around the house to his window screen was on the ground, did not see anything but the dog I got Chance a few days back was going crazy barking, not something he has done since  Chance got him. Of course, my mind said she was trying to get him. We live in the middle of nowhere and have wildlife everywhere, so could have been a raccoon, cat, or bird. The list is long. And have had a raccoon problem. I went back in got Chance he was in a meltdown like I’ve never seen. I know I should have just stayed with him. Lesson learned, Of course, he doesn’t think it could be his mom, and I never said it could have been. He is convinced it is a monster like Bigfoot, and he saw it.  The Deputies showed up and said they had a car stopped about a mile from here with out-of-state plates and wanted to look around. I guess I should explain that in my area, it is very, very rural I mean, we can go days without seeing a car drive down our road, and my nearest neighbor is 12 miles away. When it gets dark, it is dark this place has very few outside security lights that will change. They said we can’t say it wasn’t a person, but like me, think an animal is most likely as for the car and the people, they have no reason to hold them and check them out. I understand that they claim they were just lost. That does happen a lot here. People get off the main road, and it goes from there. I ask Chance to explain what happen. He said I was asleep and woke up and heard a tap on my window and heard my name (but have to say Lee Ann Womack – I Hope You Dance was on the radio. If you know the song, it says at one point, I hope you dance twice in a row and I hope you take a Chance) and I had it kind of loud, and he was half asleep. Then he said, I heard a growl, and it kept hinting at the window, trying to break it. My brain says ok, it was the dog growling at a raccoon. But the dad says that bitch tried to take him. That boy needs a break. It would be so much easier if I had a clue how we ended up here. This was her dream. We risk everything to buy this place. Took every penny. We actually made money this year. I can’t remember the last time we had a fight or even an argument. We had a party planned when I finished the hay work again her ideal. She had sent out the invite. She and Chance had a fight the night she left, but I can’t believe that had anything to do with it. I have to figure out the next move here. Chance can’t take much more. He thinks his mom left him over a boot and refuses to wear one now because she said, now Bigfoot is after him. I don’t mean that as it sounded, he is 11, and his mom was his world which doesn’t say much about me. The sheriff dispatch just called and said they had a report of two people walking down the road about 8 miles from here as the crow flies ( like 20 miles by road)  probably not related, but was just advising me because of my situation, Deputies in the area trying to locate and want to know if they could just check around the house and barns off and on. Not a coffee drinker, but may start probably no sleep tonight.

If anybody reads this, I’m not usually a raving moron. Just so frustrated. Everyone said moving to the country, it’s quite nothing ever happening, no stress, simple life you will love it. Chance is getting restless, so guess I will move him to my room and see if he will stay asleep.