Day 10 evening edition

We did the bare minimum today and just laid around the house Chance practiced the piano for a couple of hours his choice. I was a little shocked by it, but guess that was something we did together and not her and him. That seemed to calm him down I could hear him singing and playing. It echoed threw the house. I think he is getting mad now, which I guess is normal. I think he was telling her off in his own way with what he was singing. I debated if I should put a clip on here are not I may or may not leave it. He would be so mad at me if he knew I did. But listen to the words.

He is so funny, he is loud if he thinks nobody is listening and stops if he knows anyone is. They say music calms the soul, it seems to work for him

There was no talking about her in any way. I’m so lost on how to help him in so many ways he is me made over.  You deal with your problems on your own. I started using this to unload in hopes it keeps me from unloading on him so far so good but never thought I would be writing anything down. I reread what I write and delete it thinking my god you sound like a wimp, cowboy up and deal with it. Then start all over writing and debate do I push send or Delete ?

Chance came in and said can we go ride for a while and look at cows are something I need outside.

Me: sounds good get jeans and your boot on and we will go

Little did he know I was going stir-crazy sitting in that house or maybe he did. We rode till almost dark and probably did not say twenty words, but that is kind of the norm when you’re on a horse in the middle of nowhere looking at nature. Got back feed stock. We had soup and sandwiches for dinner. He showered, I turned on a movie he got her throw wrapped up in it climbed into her chair, and was out.