Wednesday 10/5/22

5:16am I was kept up late last night. The aides didn’t put me to bed until 11:30. I had another shitty night. I was up most of the time. Then the aides wouldn’t come around to change me until four. Then I must of slept some because I had some very weird dreams.

I had this one dream about my former brother in law Eric. I could see him plain as day. We were standing besides my father’s car. Eric was arguing with me about a broken windshield. I twas trying to fix it. He went on about how I wasn’t fixing it right. We got in a very heated discussion.

I don’t know if this was the same or different dream. I was in Steubenville speeding on Sunset Blvd. I was drinking a real fancy sports cat. There was this beat up old Ford following me. I was going pretty fast dodging traffic. But this car was right on my tail. I think I finally got stopped by the cops. This was when the aides woke me up.

I had a couple nice aides. They cleaned me up, changed my briefs and got me in my wheelchair. This was at 5. I feel fairly good despite the restless night. My over all misery index is down to a two. I won’t feel up to par until I get my morning caffeine fix. 

9:40pm This was one hell of a day. I went to the store dinning room area to thirs afternoon. I took my tablet with me because my roommate was sleeping. I  started reading /listening to my book The Republic for Which it Stands. I was having a good old time until ,before I even realized it, I was dozed off.

I dropped my tablet.I couldn’t do anything with it. I had a hard time turning it on and off. I couldn’t access my apps the one time I did get to my home page. It was all screwed up.

I was very upset. I tried getting help at the nurse7’s station. Nobody knew anything about tablets. I was on the verge of tears until I was screaming and cussing I wasn’t mad at anyone but myself.

Darla from PT was there She looked at it and juggeztef I charge it up. Nurse said something to about the nursing home buying a new one. Anyways Dela took the tablet to my room and plugge it in. I left in charging for several hours.

This didn’t lesten my anxiety. I kept thinking I will have to buy a new tablet next month. The sick etr I bought was $140 something. I just do not have the money or credit to buy another tablet. I was so upset I had a major meltdown tdown.

I calmed myself down and left it alone. I read for a couple hours. I decided to check the tablet one last week time. Low and behold it works! I was so friggin relieved it seems to be working fine now. Thank God!