My husband’s Mistress

My husband has another love in his life. She’s white, just like me, but we are so different. She’s no one new, she’s been around for a couple years now. She’s always caused problems between he and I. It seems like he spends time with her everyday, ecspecially recently. She lights up the minute he gets around her, and he turns her on, more than he turns me on. He invests so much time and money into her and I have to admit that it upsets me and makes me insanely jealous. The joy he gets from being with her, the anger he gets when she lets him down, the range of emotions alltogether that I witness from him when they are together, why can’t we have that? They share in so many adventures that I could never compete with. She appeals to all of his interests, whether it’s football, soccer, or even treasure hunting, there’s nowhere she can’t take him. It seems at times that she is all that he thinks about, as a matter of fact, he makes it a point to spend at least an hour of fully dedicated, uninterrupted time with her every day, like I said, at least lately. I was brought to tears today when I realized how much she really did negatively impact our relationship. On the days that he’s not with her, it turns me on that he can ignore her for that day and we end up hookin’ up, but then it’s like now that he has tasted me he has to return to what’s more important, her, and he does, and then we fight about it, and then the next day, hopefully he’s back to me out of guilt, and then it’s back to the beginning and the vicious cycle begins again. There are times, every once in a blue moon when all three of us can be together at once, but the last time that happened was weeks ago, and I really just do it because I know it makes him happy. He said he wishes I could get to know her better so that the three of us could be together more often, and he said it would be hot, but I don’t want to get to know her. The bottom line is, I just wish that I was more important to him than his stupid XBOX 360!