Still Standing

Hey OD Family:

Things have been okay.  I still miss Myles and we text here and there but I have tried to keep my distance.  He never brought that woman back to church after that one time and I am like whatever.  I thought I would be over him by now and I hate that I am not.  He sends texts telling me how much he misses me and that he loves me or when I see him at church he does that as well.  He has tried on several occasions to see me or wanting us to hang out but I have been serious about not doing it.  Would I take him back?  If things could be right, I would, but there is still hurt and disappointment in my heart. 

I love him but I see him differently.  He is the man I trusted with my heart, my best friend, my teammate, and he broke it.  I don’t know, I hate the thought of him moving on but I cannot worry about that.  I need to move on, but I want a good guy.  I miss what we had. 

My year has been cool with the exception of my love life.  Work is great, had amazing vacations, family is great…but there is a void in my love life.  I want to be married and I want to have kids and I feel like my time is ticking away.  I want to start dating and meet great people.  Thanks for reading! 

Signed,

Prayerful and Hopeful…Hoping My Heart Heals Soon