Here we Go Again

Hello Everyone:

 Hmmm..Well this entry is definitely different from the last.  Gosh, I feel like such a Buster sometimes!  On the other hand I have said that I wanted to do things differently because the same ol thang is not working because I have still been in the same dead end relationships.

 Tuesday night I broke down and called Bert.  I was thinking about him and the great time we have been having and I just didn’t get it.  He called me back and we had a long talk.  I was very glad I stepped outside my box and called him.  I told him that I felt one week it was all good and the next week it was like WTF???  I told him I felt that he was "preoccupied" (a.k.a. with another woman) and he was like "So you are saying I am neglecting you?  He went on about how he can’t have that  and that he would do whatever it takes to make it up to me.  We talked a long time about a variety of things and he mentioned that he just bought a new house too, and I haven’t seen his house and he also said that I could come see him sometime and that he always comes to see me. I told him that was cool. He told me he wasn’t seeing anybody.   He wanted me to come that night but I couldn’t go out like that.  So, I told him I would come see him the next day.  Not before I told him that he was still in trouble and that he had to make it up to me.  I told him he needs to make sure I don’t feel neglected, call me and he asked me would I like a foot massage and I said that would be nice and he asked me what else I wanted because this was my chance.  I told him just a kiss.

 So last night I went over to his house.  It’s cute, it is a town house.  We talked a lot about a variety of things and it just made me understand him more.  It was nice but  like I told him I am just taking everything in and trying to see what it is I am working with.  He tells me he wants to be in a relationship but then other things he says leads me to believe he likes his freedom.  I think he just doesn’t want to feel obligated to check in or not do this or not do that because he is in a relationship.  He asked me did I kiss all my friends.  I told him no, that I did have friends but that is all they are ..just friends.  I asked him did he kiss all his friends, he smiled but he said no.  We talked a lot of flirty talk and we talked about dating and he asked me would I care if he kissed his friends and I said Yes, he said why? And I said because.  He was like okay because what?  And I said because I like you.  Wow!!  That was big for me.  He smiled hard and he told me he like me too, but he didn’t want me to be disappointed in him.  It was cute, I asked him why would I be disappointed..Anyway, to make an extremely long night short.  We talked a lot, I understand him better and I don’t know what will happen between us.  I do know that we are too cute touching, hand holding and looking in each other’s eyes.  I like to rub his head and he likes to play with my toes.  It is too cute.  Those times are really nice, they are the ones that make me smile for days after I have left him.  Those are the times that make me step outside my box and initiate contact even when I think he should be on him.

 He wanted me to stay the night , I told him I should leave.  I eventually got up and he gave me a big hug and we started to kiss.  It was sooo intense.  His kisses make me forget everything  that would possibly hold me back.  Kisses were so sweet and intense, I grabbed his face, he held him gently as I passionately kissed him.  His hands rubbed up and down my body and my jogging pants left ample room for his hands to find their way to that forbidden place I wanted him to go but I knew he shouldn’t.  He immediately found out I had on a thong when he felt just skin, it made him moan.  His fingers found their way inside me and it felt soo good ..too good.  I told him we needed to stop, but I kept kissing him.  He kept trying to take me upstairs but I told him I needed to leave.   He got behind me and started to kiss me again and his hands once again pleasured me.  He whispered, “You are soo wet, I can’t let you leave like that, I want you.  Let me feel you” I let out a sigh and tried to regain my composure and we held hands as he walked me to the door.  He grabbed my waist from behind and started licking my ears and it made me moan and his hands once again found their way to my sweet, dripping wet center.  It felt sooo good, it made me arch my back and press my ass against his swelling manhood, it made him moan. His hands found their way into my sexy bra.  He told me to stay with him tonight.  I finally grabbed his hands and told him I really had to leave.  I couldn’t even open the door and he wasn’t helping.  It made us laugh.  He opened the door for me and he told me “I don’t want you to kiss your other friends” I thought that was cute.  I told him I didn’t and I told him I didn’t want him to kiss his friends.  He told me he didn’t.  Then I gave him a kiss and I left. I called him when I got home as he requested and then I went to sleep.

 So, I don’t know.  I don’t want us to move to fast and wake up being strangers but I don’t want things to cool

off either.  I am just playing things by ear and whatever happens ..happens..However, I can’t spend the night because things are too  hot right now between us. 

 What do you all think??  I don’t know.

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