Wednesday 9/7/22
5:29am I had a very nice aide last night. She got me into bed at 9:30 I was pretty tired despite sleeping half the day. I had another good night with no weird or disturbing dreams . Arthritis pain was minimal and I slept through most of the night.
I need a cup of coffee. I will never get used to waiting two hours for my at coffee. But coffee will come as sure as rain. At least I’m above the dirt
Actually, I feel fairly good this morning. Main thing I’m not worried or obsessed about the rent situation. I feel I honestly did my part and now it is up to the nursing home. Like I said they know where I live when they want their money.
I’m doing ok physically as well. Shoulders ache but that is par.Arthritis pain is down to a one. I had one incontinence episode since getting up. Everything seems to be pointing to a good day.
3:27pm I ended up having a another shitty day. I finally got my rent paid. I ended up paying $500.00 I don’t want to go into the sordid story. It was a cluster fuck and I felt like a big screw up all day long.
I made some major changes as to how I pay my rent. I authorized the nursing home to take out $583.00 on the third of every month. I am hoping they will get their money first. The rest will go on credit card payments. My nerves cannot go through this shit again This way the nursing home gets their money.
I hate it when I have problems paying bills. I was very, very depressed all afternoon. I was able to read. I read chapter ten “Amatures go to War.” I hope to read two chapters today. This proved to be good therapy for me because I got lost in the Civil War.
This turned out to be a very bad day for Chocolatechp. She scheduled transportation with her case manager from Healthways a week ago. They were supposed to go grocery shopping at Walmart. Chocolatechip waited for over an hour and the case manager never showed. She was very upset because she is low on food.
Food today wasn’t that great either. I had the usual for breakfast. I had two slices of toast,scrambled eggs, hot oatmeal cereal and a banana. For drinks I had three cups of coffee and a glass of oj. I get kind of tired of the same thing every day but I ate it.
Lunch was not my favorite. I had ham and pinto beans, cold fried potatoes,cornbread and jello for desert. The coffee was barely warm but I didn’t complain. At least I had something to eat.
5:50pm. Supper turned out to be the best part of the day. I had two slices of pepperoni pizza, cucumber salad and cookies for desert. The two cups of coffee I had could of been hotter but I drank it anyway.
I talked with Chocolatechip before supper. She was going on about how she gets a raw deal, especially from Healthways. She talked about how lousy her case managers were e’re. Chocolatechip said her present one seems like an air head. She has one more ride scheduled to the DG but with her but she is thinking about canceling.
Then Chocolatechip went on about this waver program. She swaid it would be a miracle if this works out. Right now they are doing the financial assessment. Next month they will do the health aspects. I said I hope you get on it because you are not getting help from Healthways.
I talked a little bit about my problem with billing. I said they gave me the third degree. They asked where my money went. I said I don’t know. I said I called my credit card company Sunday. They said I had $581 avaiable. I call them today at first I heard $507. I said I don’t know what the heck is going on. in the end they made !e feel like shit.
We both had a shitty day. We agreed that it is getting harder and harder to do the Simplist of things. Everything seems to get harder when you get older. Then we ended our conversation because they served dinner.
9:23pm I had a pleasant evening.vi read a chapter in m my book Battle Cry of Freedom. i read the about the first battles of the war and how Lincoln is was able to keep the border States in the Union . I also read about the first Battle of Bull Run and other events during the opening of hostilities. I had a nice, relaxing evening.
I called the credit card company. The nursing home got their rent money. I have $70 available for purchases. I promptly bought a book for $3.99. It’s a self help book on how to transform your self talk. But I am not buying anymore books this month.
I am in good spirits now.. With the rent settled this month I gradually defused. Getting this business with the rent out of the way I was a big load off my mind. I was able to concentrate and enjoy my book
I’m proud of myself. Despite the chaotic day I read one and a half chapters. This was the most reading I did in several days. I even looked at the headlines of the New York Times. I’d love to be able to get back to reading that paper as well. Perhaps I’ll .be able to do both tomorrow. That is my ultimate reading goal.
It is 10:12pm. I’ve been in this wheelchair for a little over 17 hrs. I’m not too tired though. I am reading a very interesting book and I could stay up most of the night reading. After all, the Civil War is one of the most interesting periods in U.S. history. I can never get enough of it.
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