philosophical shifts and Samoa pudding

Fantastic date last night with Scotty.  We try to always do dates every Saturday, but last night’s was shorter than average due to Enzo’s birthday party.  We both brought some books and ordered some half-price desserts featuring a yummy Samoa pudding (Kneader’s!  Saturday!  After 8 pm!  The best!!) and chatted about what we’ve been learning, reading, and thinking, and how we want to take those truths into action.  I’m so grateful for the resources we’ve both been immersing ourselves in.

Yesterday I’ve made myself a decent-sized list of things that no longer are part of my head, but that still exist in my heart.  They aren’t even what others would say were particularly spiritual — just personal development related.  As I experience life in my body, I’d say I usually first make philosophical shifts, then heart shifts, then action shifts.  There’s a few areas in homeschooling (Well.  Many.) that I keep wanting to fully shift but which seem stuck as only philosophical changes.  So I’ve been investigating why, and there’s definitely still some fear attached.  The fear has really shrunk (thank you, Teaching from Rest!) but it’s still there.

So I made this list of what I want to cleanse from my life, then couldn’t stop without adding a second list: what I want to replace it with.  I’ve decided I’m going to go to a lake or river and do a symbolic cleansing, a “washing in the River Jordan seven times” type of experience.  I’m really excited and anticipating serious improvement.  I can sense it.  Oh, sure, I’m a pretty unconventional Saint/Mormon.  And that’s fine by me.

We have our anniversary coming up in a couple of weeks and I’ve been struggling (as ever) with what to get for him.  He decided a few months back to take JFF’s class for men, “The Art of Loving,” and there’s a female version too.  I don’t really have tons of desire to take “The Art of Desire,” (haha!) but I think I’m going to sign up for him for our anniversary present.  Is that lame?  Maybe it’s lame.  But I suspect he’d be grateful and happy with it.  …Honestly, I don’t know that I’m going to do the class in the same super-involved way he does, but even taking it would be a big step.  I’m quite content with our marriage and relationship and have so many other interests that I just don’t feel as intrinsically motivated to pursue more marital learning.

That’s about all.  I’ve got to get ready for church.  I know I’m going to be late, but by how much?  And will I take time for makeup??