Feeling blah…

rent a room and I fill the spaces with
wood and places to make it feel like home
but all I feel’s alone
it might be a quarter life crisis
or just the stirring in my soul

I guess we all go through periods of not writing in here.  I don’t even know that I have a legitimate reason.  I’m just feeling blah and though I feel like there is so much I need to write about, I feel like I don’t have the energy.  Earlier this week, there was a lot of my mind…a few of those light blub over the head, epiphany moments where all of a sudden things were clear and they made sense and I wanted to write them down, but was too lazy.  The thing that sucks about that is, once I don’t write it down, it all seems to go away and disappear.

Let’s see what else.  I’ve been watching the Winter Olympics all weekend when they’ve been on.  Eh.  It’s ok.  Not as much fun as the Summer ones.  Everything has become so technical in all the competition. For example, I used to love to watch the figure skating, but these days, it’s not fun.  The judging is all based on who can do the harder jumps and the artistic part of it all seems to be gone. 

I watched two movies this weekend.  Yesterday was The Constant Gardener which I loved!  What a great movie and Rachel Weisz is so deserving of her nomination for the Oscar.  She was great and she’s so beautiful.  Is it just be or is there something about her that reminds me of Kate Winslet?  The movie made me sad though.  It’s crazy to think what the big pharmaceutical companies are doing out there.  It’s sad that people seem to have forgotten the real golden rule and instead go by the new one…you know…those you have the gold make the rule.  It’s sad to think that people think of others as beign expendable.  I wonder how much of the story is based on real circumstances.  The optimist in me keeps saying that the whole world isn’t like this.  I keep remembering the case study I did back in grad school for the pharmaceutical company Pfizer.  I think it was for my ethics class.  The story was about a disease called river blindness that was going around in the villages of African countries.  Pfizer came up with a cure for it but these poor people couldn’t afford to actually pay for this medicine.  In the end Pfizer ended up giving away all the medicine to those that needed it.  So it makes me wonder.  Are there more people in the world who are like Pfizer?  Or are there more people in the world who are like the drug companies in the movie?  My fear is that it’s the latter.

Today I watched Just Like Heaven.  It was adorable.  Totally predictable and I saw the ending from a mile away, but still cute nonetheless.  The actors were cute and the characters were cute and the storyline was cute.  It’s one of the better romantic comedies I’ve seen. 

That’s it.  Nothing more to say.  I’m gonna go back to watching Desperate Housewives and then Grey’s Anatomy.  Yes, that’s how sad my life is…it’s reduced down to watching TV and movies.