wow, how long has it been?

hi diary and diary readers!

wooooow, i have not written in so long!

so much has changed, im fkin tired of being so emo about everything! fk that shit!

im pretty, im cute, and im attractive, and i think i have a great personality! fk those ppl who think otherwise, screw u!

im not gonna care what people think anymore, ive cared too much for too long

 

 

 

sooo, how is my life? what have i been up to?

well, love life is pretty…..not there lol

ive been in like two or three dates since my last entry lol

the first one was…..no lol, just no xD

the second one was pretty good, we’re friends though, hes cool, and he likes what i like, hes so geeky and cute, and hes older…hot xD

but our whole styles and tastes in food, clothing, arts, and pretty much a lot of things are different lol, but hes a cool guy

the other one(asshole) we made out hardcore the first date, but we didnt let it get too far, we never rlly talked again xD

 

 

also ive learned im kind of…flirty? xD people say im very touchy in a flirty but comfortable way xD i dont rlly notice it >.<

 

im gonna be 20 next month….wow, 20….im not gonna be a teenager anymore u know? i gotta start getting my life together, i gotta start making my life happen….i dont wanna stay here in the imperial valley…its like….rlly hot and boring as fk….my best friend(ivana) and i are planning on getting out of here in the next 2 years…moving to monterey….im so excited, but i gotta start saving and i gotta start making my life more stable

im excited…..but im scared…..but its a feeling i have to have to get my life moving, its time to take risks, its time to be confident, im not a teenager anymore, ive found myself personality wise, and im taking my time to find myself spiritually

i have a speech teacher….shes so wise, so spirtual, i can sense it, and i can see it….her native american stories are just…..so inspiring, i want to be like her one day…..im learning more and more from her every week(shes not doing it on purpose though, she cant, because im her student and it bypasses student/teacher policies) but i asked her to be my spiritual teacher, and she said shed be honored, but until the semester is over, because she cant meddle with students in her class….she said i was a very wise young man, and extremely creative….hahaha, its such a compliment to hear that from her, im so excited to start my studies with her =)

 

so yea, thats been my life so far….

those have been my worries so far….

the story of my life is starting to get interesting =)