im over it….i think…

a lot bad stuff happened these past few weeks

my emotions got out of control, and i kept hearing rumors about him, how he got over me, how he just used me….i mean….we had sex when we werent even together…. i thought that wouldve meant something…..his sister just told me he was being an ass and using me for sex =/

that got to me….i cussed him out, and we werent friends anymore….

then 2 days later, when we went to school, i got so angry…..so very angry, there were so many thoughts going through my head….i just exploded, i stood up from my chair in the lounge, and in a fit of rage just smacked a chair away….the chair broke without even moving, which people told me i had incredible power for doing such a thing, which was, u know, cool lol….

anyways….we patched things up…..the rumors were a lie, and i was a fool to not go to him first….a huge fool….i paid the price, i got a lecture from him, and i lost his complete trust…..amd the worst thing of all, in that moment that i was so very sry, he just said, i forgive u…..

 

that hurt me….it hurt me so much that he actually forgave me, i couldnt take it, after all that i had done, and another thing which id rather not put here….(lets just say, his mom found out what i had thought he did to me…..she didnt like it….) it was a horrible feeling…..but…i was very grateful….

 

 

that was a few weeks ago…..now….i dunno, ive reverted to the stage where i want romance….im over him, i dont miss him anymore, not since that day….

 

 

i experienced romance only one day with him, it was sweet….but he wasnt rlly the romantic type, he hated it, and he didnt believe in "that shit"

i want romance now, i mean, i can wait and everything, but it would be nice to have it….lol, i have the cutest picture of gay furries in love, its sooo cute =D everytime i see it, im just like "awwwwwww! omg, that is soo cute and romantic =D" it makes me feel all fuzzy inside haha

 

anywaaays, im good now =P

 

 

in other news…..I WENT TO A LESBIAN BAR, duuuuuude!!! omg, it was….AWSOME, i felt completely safe lol, i went with my lesbian friend =P. it was sooooo much fun! ever since, ive just been wanting to dance =P i might go to a gay club sometime, its called mirage =P i rlly wanna go lol, i think itd be soo cool, and i can dance all i want =D

 

ahh, me and my emotions, its so annoying haha….

hmm… >.>

i want adventure =D i love adventure, dats why it was so much fun to go to that bar, it was something new, and it was adventurous haha

 

alright, well i have nothin else to talk about =P

baii!