Monday 4/25/22

11:15am I had one nightmare after another last night. I woke myself up screaming a few times. At one point the aid came in. She said I was waking up everyone on the floor. I said I couldn’t help it. She said said that I was doing it on purpose. I denied it. Then he said we can tell when you are taking. I did didn’t say anything because I didn’t have want an argument. I thing I managed to get some sleep. They came to get me out of bed around 4:30.

I looked at the clock. It was 5:00am. Oh shit I thought to myself. Two hours until coffee and Breakfast. I sat in my wheelchair until they served breakfast. I had an egg with cheese sandwich, hot cereal, cup of coffee with cream, oj and chocolate milk. The coffee was hot. Breakfast was pretty good and I ate it all. I felt a !ot better.

Darla, from PT came for me after breakfast. She took me to the gym. I had a thirty minute session. During which time I had to stand once for four minutes. Then we worked on my legs I did two sets of twenty of back and forth, side to side and marching. While exercising she talked to me about knee replacement surgery.

Darla was really pushing it. She said I woul be able to walk again. She also asked me wouldn’t it be nice to liv  e on my own? I could see my girlfriend. I would be so much better with a knew knee. I was skeptical. I didn’t say this but I heard a lot of bad things about knee replacements. For one thing they fall off and I have to do the thing over. I didn’t say this either but I am putting off surgery’s for as long as possible.

I did say I lost everything when I came here. I also have no place to go. Darla said there are a lot of agencies that help people get a second start. I didn’t know this. It would be nice to have my own apartment again.I do not want to spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair.

She wheeler me back to my room when finished. I called Chocolatechip. I told her about my conversation j with the therapist. I said knee replacement is a scary thought. It is major surgery and one shouldn’t take it lightly. Stii, I could get it done. We could get married or move in together. Chocolatechip could be my caregiver. She said she can barely take care of myself.

There was some excitement on her floor last night. Pull cord went off in someone’s apartment. A lady fell. Chocolatechip was the only respondent. Chocolatechip could not pick up this lady because it went against protocol. The family could sue Chocolatechip or the Housing Authority if the lady was hurt. She did call 911 and left when the ambulance became.

Well,so much for my morning. Despite a lousy night I had a good one. No pain or incontinence episodes. I got good care and breakfast was good. I had  good pt session . Life is pretty good.

They will be serving lunch soon. I’m having Salisbury steak, veggies a dinner roll and pudding. I’m getting hungrr