Monday 3/21/22

7:41am I’m awake and in my wheelchair. I had a nice aid who got me out of bed at six. I was in a lot of pain earlier. She got the nurse to give me some Tylenol and that helped. I couldn’t get back to sleep so I was ready for them at six. I was so tired  slept in my chair until breakfast For breakfast I had and egg with cheese sandwich with hot cereal. The coffee was hot and I also had oj and a cup of chocolate milk. I felt better after I had a good breakfast.

I got in my chair earlier and for a minute I felt so depressed. I was hurting so bad? I get tired of it all, dealing with pain and incontinence.bibget tired of being stuck in a nursing home and having to sit in a wheelchair all day I was thinking this morning that this is it. My life is not going to get much better. Hell, it is only going to get worse. I had some fleeting thoughts which I was will never act on.

Like I said I felt so depressed. But breakfast and Chocolatechip cheered me up. I talked with her on the phone. She said somebody knocked on her door late at night She thought it was this guy named Wayne. I said it is hard to tell. She said she couldn’t get back to sleep but she had to get up early for an appointment at WMC for a B12 shot. Despite having a somewhat bad night she seemed to be in good spirits.

We were talking about my audiobook I said I have a ways to go yet. I was telling her I listened to the part about the Tet Offensive in 1968. I said you felt like you were actually in the battles. I also said I was always fascinated with military life and wished I could of stayed in the Marines. Talked about my brother who did two tours in Vietnam. My brother and her father were both career military men.

I had a nice conversation with her. Talking to Chocolatechip always cheers me up. I feel pretty good right now. I think this is going to be another good day.

12:00pm I was chatting with Chocolatechip while she was at the hospital. She was telling me that she gave a letter to George about how did use and crude some people are at Bingo. They do act rather ignorant according to Chocolatechip. Anyways. George wanted to talk to her this morning. He asked for names and she named names. Rick, Jenn and Theresa are the main culprits. Anyways George said he will talk to them. We both hope they cancel bingo.

Her doctor’s appointment went well. She had Blessed Transportation take her up and back. She didn’t have to wait for the bus. Chocolatechip got back in time for meals on wheels and the caregiver. Caregiver ois really helping with inspection Chocolatechip said. I’m glad she got help.

I wasn’t too happy this morning. I had to go to the bathroom. I rang the call light but nobody came. This causes no  end of frustration. I get in trouble for getting poop all over the place. But they do not come to help me to the bathroom. What the hell am I supposed to do? I can’t hold it forever.I finally got changed after talking to the nurs. But it took them over an hour or so to get me.

Other than that I’m having a good morning. I listened to my audiobook for awhile but got to talking to Chocolatechip. Then people were coming in and out of my room. I got pretty sleepy and couldn’t concentrate. I fell a sleep in my wheelchair for the longest time. Oh well. I will pick it up after lunch. Things quiet down in the afternoon.

I remember part of the book. The author talked about the Army’s moral One general said we entered the war with the best army in the world but after three years it was the worse. Moral was low and drug use was high. According to Hastings. Some volunteered to Vietnam because of easy access to drugs. I think I remember the author saying there were eleven thousands arrests for dug use in one year. But the authorities could not stop the flow of drugs.

I didn’t get too much out of my book this morning because of the interruptons. I will pick it up in the afternoon.

Lunch ought to be coming soon. I’m getting hungry. I hope the coffee will be hot. I could use a strong cup of hot coffee.

7:20pm I slept a good bit in the afternoon. The coffee I had for lunch was hardly wam. I drank it anyways. Other than th at lunch was good. I had Chicken Enchiladas, Mexican rice and pears for desert. I had  two glasses of fruit punch and cold coffee. I chatted with Chocolatechip a lot. But I slept most of the afternoon away. I must of been pretty tired.

I started to listen to my audiobook on the Vietnam War. I didn’t get much out of it because I kept falling a sleep. Then I was chatting awith Chocolatechip. It looks like the harassment has started again. This time they rang her buzzer. She didn’t answer it. We were talking about who might of done it. I said it had to be someone from the Bitch Clique. She went on about how the shit hit the fan and wondered if people will start knocking on her door at night. I said I hope not.

We chatted on and off all afternoon. We talked about Sue, her caregiver. Sue did a lot of work today. I said good Between, you and Sue you ought to be ready for inspection. She said she will pass. She also put in more work orders. Also, Greg, one of the maintenance men  gave her a big bottle of bed bug spray? She gave him a twenty in return. She saw one bb but will spray her apartment to be on the safe side.

I had to cut our conversation short? They delivered supper. It was ham and pinto beans, coleslaw and tater tots. I had a cup of hot coffee and a glass of fruit punch. For desert I had a cake. Supper was ok I can’t complain.

I went back to my audiobook after supper. Max Hastings was talking about the new administration efforts to forge a Vietnam policy acceptable to the American people. Here the South Vietnamese would gradually take over the ground fighting while I.S. forces would be withdrawn. Nixon alo began the secret bombing of North Vietnamese bases in Cambodia  He also began seeking to end the war through negotiations

I took a break from my book. I started to browse books from my wish list I saw yet another book about the Vietnam War. This one is about an American who lead a break out of prisoners in Laos. It seemed interesting enough so I added that to my read list. I doubt I would buy it though. I’m sticking to the list of books I picked out last week.

Well, the day is almost over.i had somewhat of a bad morning. I had that humiliating accident. Then I had arthritis pain. I was so tired and somewhat on the cranky side. But the day got better in the afternoons I had a good time chatting with Chocolatechip. She always manages to put me in a good mood. I was feeling pretty good by supper time.

8:55pm I made some progress in my audiobook? I have twenty chapters to go. I hope to finish it tomorrow. This was another great book from B&n. I’d give this a five star rating. I’d like to continue listening but it is getting late. My roommate is sleeping and I try to be quiet. Besides I need a break. I e been listening to this boo since after supper.

It is now 9pm. I have been in this wheelchairu since six. That is at least fifteen hours. I’m getting sleepy and would like to go to bed. But they will keep me up for at least another hour. This schedule I’m on is one of my major gripes. Another is them not changing me.bi got changed after supper. That was twice today besides my morning change.

Sometimes I think I would be better off in another place. I was thinking Weirton Geriatric Center. At least Chocolatechip could come and visit. But I would have to pay for own phone and cable. Then there would be the question of rent. I go to the trouble of moving and would I get any better care?

Besides, I hate moving. This May will mark my second year in this place. I know the ropes. I know what to expect. I also got used to the environment. And it really isn’t that bad. I donno. No nursing home would be perfect and things could be worse in a different home. I’m staying put for better or worse.