Wednesday 3/16/22
10:13am I had another lousy night. Arthritis pain kept me from sleeping. I didn’t get in my wheelchair until after breakfast. I’m still very tired and sleepy. It seems I am always tired thanks to Covid. Anyways I’m above the dirt.
I did some reading last night. I haven’t finished Crosswinds of Freedom yet. I still h ave thirty pages to go. I enjoyed reading the American Experiment series. These books consisted of Vineyard of Liberty and Workshop of Democracy. I njoyed it so much I hate to be done with it. I highly recommend these books and give them a five star rating.
Anyways. Last night I was reading about Ronald Reagan and the rebirth of conservatism. The author, James MagGregor Burns, writes that there hasn’t been a conservative President since Hoover. Eisenhower and Nixon were moderate Republicans who kept in tact most of Roosevelt’s domestic policies. Nixon was a big disappointment because he supported many liberl policies. To make matters worse y ene end of the 70s many predicted that conservatism in America was dead.
Thought this was very interesting. I wanted to read more but got sleepy. The aids came and put me to bed by 10:30 tried to read in bed but was too tired. I was too tired to read but still could not sleep. Kept thinking about Reagan and the 80s. These were very hard years for me. I lost my job at Eagles,lost my house and marriage. I do not hold Reagan responsible for my misfortune. Reading about anything connected to the 80s brought back bad memories.
But I survived. I survived another bad night. Breakfast was ok. I had toast and eggs. Didn’t drink coffee because I was still in bed. For some reason I get coffee all over me when I try to drink kit in bed. Finally got out of bed and in my chair after breakfast. I feel fairly good now. Life is good?
I must of come into some money yesterday. I was able to buy three ebooks. I bought Vietnam: An epic Tragedy, 1945- 1975 by Max Hastings. I also bought The Road not Taken: Edward Landscape and the American Tragedy in Vietnam by Max Boot and The Korean War by Max Hastings? I felt so good after buying those se book s. I thought I was broke I guess I had no ore money than anticipated.bwellz I’m broke now until I get my SS check which is three weeks from now.
1:18pm I was very tired thi s morning. I slept on and off in my chair.i browse books on my wish list. I have at least seven I want to buy. Then I called Chocolatechip. She didn’t sleep very well. I asked if anyone knocked on her door last night. She said no. She talked about her procedure yesterday. I think it was was some kind of brain scan. Dr want to find out why she is having memory loss. Chocolatechip called her Dr. He is still evaluating the results. We didn’t talk too much. She wanted lie down.
I was sleeping in my chair until they served lunch. I had grilled chicken, mashed potatoes, zucchini and ambrosia for desert. I had a glass of chocolate milk and f a cup of hot coffee. Lunch and coffee perked me up??
Talked with Chocolatechip. after lunch. She is having a bad day. She sounded very depressed. She asked if about my bday I said other than feeling sleepy I’m ok! She thought that was funny.n She was debating weather or not to get cigars. She had no real desire to go out.
6:21pm I had a very bad accident during supper. I spilled soup all over the place. My gown is soaked. Good thing my tablet was not on the table or it would of been Ruined. I rand the call light. I will see how long it will take for them to respond.
. I am sick and tired of being exhausted all the time. I still have Covid and I’m sick of that. Just once I’d like to go to bed at a decent hour and sleep the night away with no nightmares, incontinence issues or arthritis pain.. I wish I could walk agaiin because I’m tired of being in this wheelchair seventeen, eighteen hours a day. I’m tired of peeing myself. Just once I’d like to use the bathroom by myself like a normal adult.
I guess this was a bad day all away around. I guess I was depressed big time today.. Then I spilled my supper. Perfect ending to a not so perfect day.
9:00pm I just finished all three volumes of The American Experiment. i thoroughly enjoyed reading Vineyard of Liberty, Workshop of Democracy and Crosswinds of Freedom. On a one to five scale I would rate these books a five. Next up is a two volume biography on Franklin Delano Roosevelt, The Lion and the Fox 1882-1940 and Soldier of Freedom 1940-1945 by James MagGregor Burns. I can’t wait to get started.
I was feeling very sorry for myself earlier. I managed to settle myself and read.. I it took me a couple hrs but I finished the book. I felt a lot better. I forgot about everything and got lost in a good history book. Reading is like a drug. I can escape into a different world for awhile and forget about my problems. Best part about this drug is that it’s legal.Anyways, I got my book fix and am one happy camper.
I can’t wait until i get my SS check. The third falls on Sunday so I will be getting the check on April 1. This is only seventeen more days. In addition to reading I’ve been browsing for books. I’m going to buy at least seven ebooks Saturd ay. I will be looking forward to adding these books to my library.
Well I’ve been in this darned wheelchair all day. I wish they would put me to bed I’m very, very tired. But something tells me I’m in for another long night. I want to go to sleep,get a good night’s rest and wake up refreshed. It has been so long since I had a good night I wouldn’t know how to act if it ever happens. I might as well wish for a winning power ball ticket.