Everyone else has a dream

I’m following blindly into other’s footsteps…

And making a list of resolutions..

Except I refuse to let them know that they’re "New Years" resolutions.. because then they become flaky and never resolve.

I promise myself that I will lose 50 lbs. I’ve talked of it for ages. I need to do something about it.

I will build my booth in Louisiana.

I will get my nipples pierced and not think about what anyone else thinks of that ( i’ve wanted to do it for years)

I will become more organized with World In Chains and my business taxes

I will apply for more shows and create a circuit for myself

I will play and create more music.

I will start building guitars again.

I will work more on photography.

I will banish my unhealthy relationships and learn to love me again. It sounds like crackpot cheese, but what can you do about it?

I will succeed.

In other news..  ugh. C and I need to just get this over with and split. Sadly my few reasons for wanting him around are to have someone to take care of the cats while I’m gone, and body heat.  Even the sex I could probably do without because really,.. there’s no foreplay, there’s no oral ( sorry to graphic but seriously… deny a girl lovin why dont you?)..  Really all he wants is for him to be pleased. One positive thing is that he is nice to snuggle with. But that’s it.

I know I have my myriad of faults, but what he complains about is truly ridiculous.  Almost comical.

I wish I were laughing.