I’d pull my hair out if I had some

I can’t stand early evenings. All I want is for someone to talk or text me. I spent 20 years with someone I could talk with every single day who will not even humor me with an answer.

I just wish that somebody or even her would explain why. I’ve been told time and time again not to expect that explanation. I just can’t wrap that around my brain. Seriously, how does a person go from loving wife to total stranger? How is it she is so bitter and vindictive when, I swear to God, I was nothing but kind, loving, and caring every single day we were together.

I honestly would be ok if she said that it just happened or she just went as far as she could as my wife, of course to me that sounds stupid. Anything.  We have 4 kids together and she lives, owns, my family’s house. I went quietly, gave her everything she wanted. I so much as ask her and she threatens to get me arrested for harassment.  Who is she?

Who are all the others? I don’t know who my friends are. Maybe I never knew or maybe I was their D.U.F.F. The more I think about it, I think I have been wrong about them for all the years I knew them. I guess I never had friends, best friends..

I thought I was close to my sister. I was her baby brother, I didn’t realize I was just a baby bother. I was never close to either of my brothers, they made it a point to avoid me growing up. I didn’t do anything with them alone. Maybe my parents saw this and maybe they tried to keep me happy and comfortable because of it. I guess I let that go to my head and relied on them too much. It’s hard to learn to be an adult when you’re 51.