Monday 2/28/22

2:22am I’ve been up all night. I had a bad day and now I have a bad night. Pain a d incontinence are keeping me up. I’ve been peeing three or four times. One good thing is I have a very nice aid. She changed me a little bit ago and was very concerned. I would like to get in my chair but it is only two. Because of no sleep I’m going to have another bad day.

5:16am I managed to get some sleep after she changed me. I had some weird dreams that I don’t remember. Now I’m up and in my wheelchair. I feel like day old road kill but I am above the dirt. I hope breakfast and a nice cup of coffee will get me going. God, I feel like shit.

7:56am I feel better. I got some much needed sleep in my wheelchair. Then I had a good breakfast of an egg sandwich and hot cereal. I had two glasses of on and a cup of coffee. I’m not up to par but I feel human thanks to some rest and breakfast. Life is good.

Well I’m going to try and read.  I managed to do a some reading last night before they put me to bed. I was reading about the first years of WWII. I was talking before how Hitler and Mussolini were committing one aggressive act after another. Hitler had signed a treaty with Stalin and in September of 1939 invaded Poland. This time England and France honored their treaties with Poland. They soon declared war on Germany. The second world war began.

I was reading about how the US did not want to get involved in a second European War. James MacGregor Burns writes that Roosevelt was an interventionist. But public opinion and laws prevented him from doing so. When Hitler attacked Western Europe and France fell and it looked like England might be conquered the urge to do something grew stronger. There was the Lend Lease agreement and a draft l was signed.

I read a few pages then had a nice aid put me to bed. I tried to read in bed for a while then wanted to go to sleep. But, like I said, I could not sleep. I was very sleepy but started to obsess about books and finances.

Three more days and I will get my SS check. I will pay my credit card company. They  will put a hold on my payment for ten days. I will have to set up a three way phone conversation with the bank, the credit card company and myself to get access to my funds. The problem is the representatives of the credit are foreign. I cannot hear or understand them. This makes for a very frustrating experience.

I started to think I will have another round with them this Friday. This was one thing that kept me up. I started thinking about the books and the tablet. All of this kept me up. Then I had excruciating arthritis pain in both legs. On a one to ten scale the pain level was a five. To top it of I peed myself a lot. I was drenched in pee. All of this made for a very bad night.

But I survived and was revived by my morning coffee. I’m fully awake now and feeling pretty good. At least I’m above the dirt.