Well that’s another on in the books

20 minutes the 26th is over. The birthday wishes on here were awesome…Thank you.

I’m still sad I didn’t hear from Patty, which is stupid. I’m a man born into at the wrong time. My thoughts and feelings on relationships are obviously out of date in the world we now live.

I just never thought I would be at the point where I would spend holidays and birthdays alone and forgotten. It was nice to hear all my boys when I called them, but would they have remembered to call me? Would she have had them call?

Nothing from my friends or siblings. Why should they, they’ve haven’t over the last 3 years.

I’m just not ready to live like this, but I’m just going to give up on the race and just sit down and try to breath.

Wow. I am a worthless waste of skin and bones. I just refuse to see the opportunity I have laying in front of me, instead stuck in the past in a life I will never have again.  Oh there will be visits here and there from my kids, but I will always be on the sidelines.

How do you start a new life when you absolutely do not want to to?