say no to normality

there is a song and it goes “my baby loves meee I’m so happppy, happy makes me a modern girl..” and it’s been in my head since I heard this fabulous piece of chickband glory. sleater-kinney has a new album out called the woods in which this wonderful, wonderful song appears.

leaving for class in twenty minutes. creative writing class in which I did not write annnnnnything. I skimmed some tee oh dee entries and found a disturbing little thing I wrong titled “where the world shall go” and decided to turn that in instead of actually coming up with something new. yes, laziness is a way of life. in fact, I was thinking about my somewhat disgusting way of life today and thinking, “wow that’s disgusting”.

I was prompted to think of these disgusting, disgusting things after popping a Darvoset at work (a pill given to me by a lady who now gives me pills on a regular basis as long as I bring her pot on a regular basis, it’s a nice trade off really). As I bathed a puppy all lackadaisical and cloudy I realized that it is often at work in which I am high on pills. Somas flow normally throughout the salon between my drug friend and I and sometimes before work I wonder if I will be provided with pills to make the day go by. As I bathed this puppy, Chip, hardly a puppy actually 14, I realized how I am somewhat of a drug addict. Perhaps not in the tradition sense considering when I am without any form of drug I am not jonesen or angry or sick, just bored.

I did a full shave down on this dog Chip while horribly clouded by Darvoset and it was by far the prettiest looking pup I’ve done. The lines were perfect and the head was blended and ears chopped natural and cute. I must say I was proud. Maybe these pills relax me and it’s not sooo bad really to be altered at work.

oh, chip, you were cute.

Fuck man, when did drugs start to become a reoccuring character in my life? What were the writers thinking penning them in for so many episodes? When did it start being a staple and at what point did I start thinking it was totally normal and okay?

I am too drunk to finish this.