Sunday2/20/22

11:00am Once again I stayed up reading Workshop of Democracy. I finished two interesting chapters about the Progressive Era and Theodor Roosevelt. I was not your tired when the aid came to put me to bed at eleven. I laid in bed. I had another bad night but I did get some sleep. Aids came in around five and I was already up. They wouldn’t get me out of bed though because my feet were badly swollen. I tried to sleep until breakfast but couldn’t.

Breakfast left a lot to be desired. I had French toast and got oatmeal cereal. The cereal was not hot and they didn’t put sugar on my tray. So I did not eat the cereal. I was eating in bed and trying to drink coffee. I spill coffee all over me when I have it in bed. For some reason I do not enjoy my meal when I eat it in bed.

I talked with Chocolatechip last night. Somebody knocked on her door around eight.  This happens almost every night. There is no use in telling George. You have to catch them in the act and that is impossible. To make matters do Chocolatechip heard a male voice outside her door. He said something nasty to her. Anymore she takes this shit in stride.

They finally got  me in my wheelchair. I was afraid they would keep me in bed  all day My feet are still badly swollen. Why did you they wait so long to get me ng any case I’m glad I’m in my wheelchair

. called Chocolatechip. We were again talking about last night’s incident. She said she thinks she knows who is doing the knocking I sad Keith.,Carols husband. She said yes.  We both agree that whoever he is he is a sick, cowardly bastard.

We also talked about the trouble she had with that one debit card company. Her balance kept going up and down.. She finally closed the account and they sent her a refund check. They sent her two check and she can’t figure out why she’s got a second check. She said they better not send me a bill  I refuse to pay it. Still ll plans on keeping this financial windfall in her savings account.

It is almost lunch time. W They are serving pork chop, peas and a baked potato. I having a biscuit. For desert I’m having pumpkin pie. I hope to have two cups of and two fruit punches. I’m not too hungry but I will still eat my lunch.

3:05 pm Lunch was pretty good. I spent the afternoon browsing and trying to i out a budget where I can get books and a tablet.  I am hoping to buy ten of them. This will cost me $126.40. Then I was on Amazon looking at tablets. I found another Prition tablet for S127.30 Total for this would be $253.7 Add $483.00 for rent and the total is $736.70. It is going to be doable, I think. This is not engraved in I . I will probably cut back on books.

I had fun browsing on Amazon. I love that site. I used to buy from them all  when I lived independently. I never had a problem except for one time. My art came late. But they gave me a rebate for my next purchase. Most expensive item I bought from them was a microwave oven. I was very satisfied with it. I love buying things online.

This is turning out to be a good day.  I feel fairly calm and upbeat.  Arthritis pain is mi dinimal. I had one incontinence episode this afternoon. Anxiety is non i.. I had a fun and relaxing afternoon talking to Chocolatechip, looking at books and browsing on Amazon. This really is a good day.

5:24pm They will soon be serving  supper. I’m having beef veggie soup, three cheese pizza, tossed salad and sliced pears for desert. I am not too hungry but it’s against my religion to turn down pizza. I love Italian food and pizza is my favorite.

I was experiencing mood swings a little bit ago. I was doing great then it dropped all of a sudden. I do not know what triggered this change. I started to feel like shit. I felt so very sad and lonesome. I didnt talk to too many people except Chocolatechip. She is the only person I talk to on a regular basis. Normally that is enough for me but today I felt the need to be around people. But today needed to be around people. But I have nobody but Chocolatechip to talk with.

I get depressed whenever I feel so alone in the world. I try not to think about it but I thought about it today. I think this triggered the depression.i don’t really know. I do know it will pass and I will be ok.

I talked with Chocolatechip a little bit ago. She was talking about her not belonging at Overbrook Towers anymore. She said something about going into assisted living. Chocolatechip asked if Medicaid will cover the cost. I said I don’t know. I guess she felt a tad bit depressed as well because people were giving her trouble. She also needed help with housework.

I tried to cheer her up. I said you do not want to give up your freedom or independence. I said you are free to get up when you want, go to bed when you want. She said she doesn’t go anywhere anyway. I said those are basic things we take for granted but we do not want to lose them. Besides,you still do a pretty good job of managing your life. You need a little help but you still do a lot on your own.

We had to cut our phone conversation. She was going to bed early. She is going to take the 8:30 bus to the hospital. Chocolatechip has to have her monthly B12 shot. This is but one example. Chocolatechip talks a lot about being overwhelmed. But she always gets the job done. She is a very strong lady.

I just had my supper. It was pretty good. The coffee was hot and the juice cold. I’m truly blessed.