אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 8

Today I collected my first…own…Siddur.

While holding it as I walked out the Shul and when I took a picture of my self holding it, I felt so warm inside and had a huge smile on my face. Everyday when I think about my journey to Become Jewish I feel so sure about it and I feel such hope and warmth.

I do wish my mom was still alive to be with me as I take on this journey. Everyday when I think about the Wife and Mother and Jewish Women I would like to be, I think of her…creating a welcoming and warm home…creating a loving family.

At the moment I seem to have many items to further along my Journey.

I have my Tannakh

I have my Shabbat Candles

I have my Mishkan T’filah

Obviously there are more articles to get to fill my home with, but what I really wish was to have more time in the day so I can spend more time going over my study notes and many things we have learnt.

Something that I feel I have been deprived of…that many people have been deprived of , over the past few years is Community. Today I suggested, in the WhatsApp Chit Chat for my Jews by Choice Class, that we all get together. I love the sense of unity and I would love to become more familiar with my new extended family.

I hate the idea that once we all become Jewish that we will part ways. No one has yet to respond to my idea…well 1 person did. But I suppose maybe next weekend I can initiate something!

I have always been someone who loved being around people and celebrating and being happy. I miss that about me and I am so happy now that I feel as if I have found this true characteristic of myself.