2/15/2022

I really don’t know what to write right now. I’m feeling useless, worthless, and just a lump of skin taking up space. I do try to look and see things I am gratefull for and say something positive each day, but not today. I just don’t have it in me.

So, I got a call last night, but I don’t think it goes towards my counter of days I have gone without hear from someone. This aquaintance I have known for years was obviously extremely drunk. She managed to mumble about how nice I am and how things will get better. It was nice to hear, but it took her getting that drunk to even call and honestly I don’t quite remember when I last talked to her sober.

The whole tax refund mess has turned me into an mess. I really do not know how I will get myself out of financial Hell any time soon. It’s nice that there is a place between poor and rich where nothing can come your way. Make to much for government help, do not make enough for a cosolidation loan.

This last “brush off” from the lady I met online has also hit me hard. I guess I’m good enough looking to be swiped right, but not good enough to actually meet.