Wishes and hopes for some day
I wanna be beautiful.
If there was one thing in the world that I could be known for, it would be how beautiful I am.
Does anyone know what that feels like? To feel like the ugly duckling? Cos I feel that way. I feel like there is nothing so beautiful about me. There is a list as long as the Great Wall that I hate about myself. A list that I someday I want to have disappear. I want to be that woman that you see and wonder what she could possibly hate about herself because what you see is perfect.
There was this man that messaged me on MySpace. He says he has this company or something and he thinks I have potential. I messaged him back and asked "Potential for what?" and he hasn’t answered me yet. Well, I went to his MySpace page and apparently he takes pictures of women in lingerie copulating…not exactly what I had in mind. But at the same time, I’m confused at what to feel. Should I be complimented that some freako finds me attractive enough to want to take photos of me? Or should I be disgusted that he would view me as a sex doll who has potential for turning on the sickos of the world?
Ughhhh!
I do want to have my face on posters or something somewhere. Or to be on TV with a commercial for…something. But…good Lord. I just want to be beautiful.
ryn Always good to hear. I’m an admin for one of his fan sites. If you’d like, I can send you the link. ~
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You might not believe me, but you are beautiful. Not only are you beautiful on the outside, but on the inside as well. You have the potential to do whatever it is you want to do. Whether you become a famous movie star or a model, you can do it because you truly are an amazing person. Keep your chin up hun.
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I think we all have those moments where we wish we were revered just for how good we look. I used to put a lot of work into looking as good as I could possibly manage… but it feels hollow, in many ways. You seem to have plenty going for you, in many respects. And I have to say, honestly I don’t think this is a problem for you. …but I know how hard that can be to believe.
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I hope that you want to be beautiful from the inside out. Some of the most beautiful people I know are because of what the do for humanity. Remember physical attributes are only skin deep and fade with time and age. From your picture you look beautiful and I hope it radiates from the inside out. There is nothing more sexy than an amazing woman be beautiful. I hope that is you.
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