Sunday 2/06/22
9:45am I was put in bed by 7:30 last night. I stayed up to read. I finished chapter ten in Vineyard of Liberty by James MacGregor Burnes. I read for a couple hours. I finally managed to calm myself down. I had some weird dreams though after I fell asleep. I’m glad I don’t remember them. Besides the dreams I was kept in bed until after breakfast. I had a good breakfast of pancakes, ham and hot cereal. I didn’t drink my coffee.
Such was my morning so far. I can’t complain. I feel very good right now. I’m not obsessing about the credit card. I’m can’t do anything about it until Monday so why worry? I keep telling myself worrying will not help the situation one bit. It will only make me upset. I did call the credit card company. I still have no credit. Oh well, I hope to get help with this Monday and resolve this issue.
I had this friend from Overbrook Towers. His name is Tim. He is in the hospital. He was in intensive care. Chocolatechip and I are concerned about him. He has breathing problems but we do not know the extent of his condition. We knew this guy for a long time. Chocolatechip was thinking about paying someone to take her to the hospital for a visit. She called up there but could not get any information. We both hope Tim recovers.
We were worried about our friend I said I hope he recovers. Tim wasn’t always nice. He would talk dirty to Ann and she did not appreciate that. He mooched off her a lot and was always using her computer. But he is a nice guy for the most part We both hope he recovers.
A lot of people from Overbrook died recently. I think Chocolatechip said four. We talked about how this is a bad time of year for the elderly and handicapped. We talked about the different people we knew who passed This was a bad time for the residents of OT.
12:30pm I tried to read this morning but couldn’t concentrate. I fell asleep in my chair I slept on and off almost all morning. I didn’t have coffee with breakfast. That’s probably why I feel so tired. Also, depression hit me big time. Despite my best efforts I’m upset over the credit card business. I started to think the nursing home will use this as an excuse to gain control of my check. I kept thinking about this all morning. These thoughts made me physically exhausted. I wanted to sleep so I could forget about everything.
I could use a cup of hot coffee. I wish I was home so I could make my own . But I will have to wait until they serve lunch which should be soon. Lunch looks good. I’m having buttermilk chicken, veggies cornbread dressing,a dinner roll and peach streusel pie. Im hoping to get two fruit punches and a cup of coffee for drinks. I’m hoping the coffee and good food will brighten my day.
I just finished lunch. I had my drinks. The coffee was hot. I feel somewhat better.
9:52pm I was very agitated, nervous and plagued with running thoughts this morning. I was hoping a good lunch and coffee would settle me down. It did not settle me down. I crashed this afternoon. I got to the point where I just said f it about the credit card. Then I crashed becoming very, very depressed. All I wanted to do was sleep in my wheelchair. Sleep was what I did until supper.
I had a hot roast beef sandwich, mashed potatoes with gravy, green beans for supper. For drinks I had two fruit punches and a hot cup of coffee. Supper out me in a better frame of mind. Also talking to Chocolatechip helped ad well. We talked on the phone and chatted on messenger for a long time. She kept telling me that the problem is beyond my control and I need to put it in God’s hands. These words. more than anything else, calmed me down.
I felt a lot better after talking to my girlfriend. I was able to read my book Vineyard of Liberty.. I’m proud of myself because I read almost two chapters.
Aids just came in. She got me into bed but I’m going to stay up and read.