People and Their Actions…

That is tough!!

Sometimes his actions and words are so loving…but then there are times when they become so hateful and so degrading.

They say alcohol brings out the true identity of a person…but sometimes he doesn’t even need alcohol.

He says he loves me…and I love him…but then his actions don’t ways align with what he said to me before.

This morning I woke up and went into our study….I found my Tannakh lying on the floor….why would he do that? Why would he be so disrespectful to G-d? I cannot even blame the alcohol.

The alcohol….when we were at the shopping center yesterday….I asked him what did he buy…he conveniently forgot to tell me he bought himself a bottle of gin, while he showed me everything else…while having lunch he got himself a Castle Draft…this was before I joined him and I probably wouldn’t have said anything then either because it is just too exhausting to comment….but anyway I could sense he had been drinking more than just the draft….

The fit his first Covid Vax Jab yesterday…says he did it for me…. he uses the side effects as an excuse for his he was yesterday… I have had my 2 jabs and I have read up the side effects….I get him feeling tired and being lazy….but not his behavior towards me…well hey at least he didnt drink a whole bottle of gin. But the weekend isn’t over.

So we talked about us and our issues and he finally gets how I cannot lie on legal documents….

I told him that I need him to work on our home too….keep things tidy and make it it sanctuary…. he agreed.

So now we are cleaning…I mean I am cleaning…he is munching on something while watching some show on tv. I can’t be that mad because there are times when I am doing the same thing…it would just be nice if he helped me clean too…