I See It…

People have always said that when you have found G-d, you have found your way.

I have always believed in G-d, but found it hard to believe that even when you are dead broke, when things are uncertain, when you in a job that you know is below your value…basically when you know that things are not at their final conclusion, how can just believing in G-d fix everything.

I mean I have seen it…people who serve G-d in various religions and how many pledge their everything  to G-d,  but they are not the richest people on earth…they still live lives that are not to the highest levels of the ‘Western World’…so how is G-d  fulfilling them?

I am no richer than I was a month ago…I am no thinner…my husband still does have his problems….I am not pregnant…but I feel it. I woke  up this morning feeling that warmth in my chest….feeling G-d.

While writing my posts on conversion, while reading my notes, while embracing Judaism; I felt whole and complete.

I see my future and how it is going to be. Well I don’t see it completely but I know that this is my right path.


 

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February 4, 2022

May I ask why you spell his name G-d? I’m very curious. While my husband was in the hospital I had somebody else always praying for him and she too would spell his name G-d. I thought maybe it was a typo but I’m beginning to learn that isn’t the case.

 

Ps. I too feel him and my life/self is far from perfect.

February 4, 2022

Of course you can ask.

In the Jewish law it is wrong to say G-d’s name in vain. So in Hebrew G-d is given two names. One to use when you are praying and another to use when in regular speech.

And so in English there isn’t 2 names for G-d, so when I am speaking of him, and not in prayer I will hyphenate the name, so I am not speaking about him in Vain.

Hope that makes sense.

@ncumisa Thank you for this answer – another diarist left a message with the same spelling and I wondered. It is a very mindful tradition, and one that I hope I do not forget about any time soon. Peace to you.

February 4, 2022

@iamnur – Thank You. Peace to you too.