2-2-22

I’ve read that 2222 is a lucky number, maybe today I’ll win the lottery!  That would be so nice, I’d buy a house that was big enough for my girls and my grandkids and just think of all the  people I could help! The homeless, the starving, Vets and the list goes on.   What a wonderful thing that would be.

I’m trying to be more positive lately.  I’m always grateful for all that I have and I feel so blessed so that helps.  I am so fortunate to have found good doctors-although I wish I didn’t have to be on so much medication-they are understanding and helpful and do all that they can to make my life better and have my disorders under control.   I am so fortunate to have such good insurance so that  all my medications are covered and I don’t have to pay anything.  I am so fortunate to be living in an apartment that goes  by my income so my rent is very low, in fact when I called around to other apartments closer to my girls and logan and Jersey I couldn’t find anything comparable.   I am fortunate that I have an Snap card with cash on it as well.  Most of all I am fortunate to have my precious girls and Logan and Jersey.

However I tend to think negatively in most things, a bad habit I really am trying to change.   Words are so important, they shape my day with just a few changes to a sentence such as adding an “and” to the end of a sentence.  For example say to myself that it’s going to be so cold today and I can still stay in and have a good day.    Or it’s going to be cloudy today and I can still enjoy my day.   Such a simple thing but it helps my attitude.  My therapist told me to do that.   She’s wonderful, I have seen her for 20 some years.  She’s been with me for all that’s happened in my life and helped me through the changes in my life.

Edit:  this entry didn’t save the rest of my entry for some reason and I’m so disappointed but I don’t feel like re-writing it.  This will have to do for today’s entry.  Here’s hoping this will at least save.