Wednesday 1/19/22

8;23am I’m still in bed. They served breakfast at the usual time. I didn’t eat much. I had scrambled eggs with a sweet roll. I had that but didn’t eat the cereal. They served coffee but couldn’t drink it for some reason.

I wonder why they didn’t get me out of bed. I’m not feeling sick nor am I in pain, well, I’m not in too much pain. My left knee is bothering me but not enough to keep me in bed. I hope they get !e out soonpTherevisba lot to see and do in this nursing home.

9:32am I am up in my chair. Aid came in and woke me up. She was nice and did a good job. She changed my briefs, gave me a sponge bath and helped me in my wheelchair. I’m not in nearly as much pain as I was a while ago. I feel a lot better.

TI talked with Chocolatechip. She is ok. Somebody messed with her door last night.she seemed to be in good spirits. She was talking about deleating somebody on PB I was saying wouldn’t it be nice if we could delete all the assholes in real I’ve? Then her mood suddenly changed. She said she had a fever. We talked t.Then she said my bedside manner sucks. Need to be a little more compassionate. She was a bit mad.

Can’t get them right all the time I guess. I did say what is wrong?. I asked if she took anything for her fever. How can I help her if I don’t know what is wrong? Hi really do feel bad she is sick. But I don’t understand what she wants or needs from me. It is frustrating as hell sometimes. Women hare sure complicated creatures.

I wasn’t in all that great shape myself thanks to arthritis. It wasn’t real bad but it caused some discomfort.Still, I should have focused on Chocolatechip’s problem. She always listens to mine. I screwed up this time and I’m truly sorry.

Well going to give her a call. Maybe things will go better

12:32 pm I talked with Chocolatechip. Her fever broke thanks to hot tea and Beyer aspirin. She was feeling better.Hdr worker was there doing laundry. We didn’t talk too long. My lunch came.

Lunch was good except the coffee was cold. I had mashed potatoes with gravy, meat loaf Aon d green bean. I ate it all.

I’m feeling fairly good with no arthritis pain Pain level is at a two. It hurts when I move my leg but other than that I’m ok. I’m having a good day.

4:24 pm I read a little bit then got sleepy. Spent the afternoon sleeping on and off. I felt kind of depressed all of a sudden. There is no reason for the depression? It just hits me and I crash. I was doing good this morning. I felt on top of the world. Then boom! The world fell on me.

Talked with Chocolatechip a lot. She is rapped up in debit card problems. I had ya hard time understanding it. It seems like a mess. I tried to read some more I after waking up but couldn’t get into the story. It is too still a good book I just couldn’t concentrate.

Mostly I just sat in my wheelchair staring at four walls. These are days where I wish I had a tv in my room. I could at least watch the news. For some reason the tablet isn’t cutting i

I didn’t get a menu today. I don’t know what I’m having for supper. I’m not t too hungry anyways. I ate all my lunch. It was good except for the cold coffee. I drank the coffee anyways because I needed the boost. It didn’t help much because I still fell a sleep

Need to snap out of this funky mood. I have a lot to be grateful for. Focus on the positive and things will not seem so bad Remember:

I .live in a safe secure environment where I’m getting good care.
I have insurance that pays for most of the cost of the nursing home.
I have three good meals a day.
Insurance pays for my meds.
I have phone, cable and internet connection.
I have a wonderful girlfriend.
I have this tablet that gives me access to my books.
I have clothes to wear
My mind is functioning
I get a SS check every month

Things are pretty good. I don’t understand why I get depressed. I have it pretty good here for the most part. Oh well, going back to sleep

5:25pm I got my supper drinks, coffee, juice, and chocolate milk. Coffee was hot and it put me in a better mood. Also training myself to think positive thoughts helped. Don’t feel up to my game but I’m better than I did.

I had a sloppy joe sandwich and potato wedges for supper. . For desert I had cinnamon apples. It wasn’t much but I ate it and was thankful. I talked with Chocolatechip on the phone. She is doing ok.

It is 7:12 pm I would like to go to bed. I ok tirEd even though I slept most of the day away I’ve been in this chair since 8:30 this lmao ring. That is eleven hours too long. They will probably keep me up till ten tonight. Bummer