1 step forward 3steps back
I bust my ass at work, i do what i can for my kids and i am all in general a nice person. So why can i not get a head and saty ahead??
My car broke down on bryan the other day. At midnight!!! He comes home and wakes me up and goes i just wanted to let u know the car broke down(im confused cause i didnt know he was even out of the house) and im like well did u try n jump it and he goes No.
of course hes make lets not try n see if we can do things lets just leave it in the middle of the night
So im like call ur mom to go jump it. Like 15min late he calls it wouldnt jump but the guy comin outta the bar told him that it sounded like the timing belt because it was going to fast. (Kinda skeptical bout trustin a drunk but okay) so i call worshils and have it towed and they were like prolly wont look at it til tomarrow.
So im at work and i go on lunch and i call and find out about my car. Turns out its not JUST the timing belt its the gears that go with and oil and oil filter and that plus labor and towing is going to cost me 425 plus tax!!!!!! Yeah cause i can go to my money tree i grow in the back yard and just pick it right?!
So I was pissed and then depressed and i come home and start figurin it all out. how am i gonna get the money for my car pay my rent and my bills outta this check??
I got bryans mom to borrow money for me to fix it but then to pay it back im gonna have less then nothin outta next check and the 3 after that i gotta pay catch up with my other bills?? And my car wont be done til beginning of next week.
I just wish i could afford a new one, but if i pick up a car payment I would have to stay with bryan until its paid off cause i cant pay that rent plus student loans and bills?! Sometimes i wish i could turn back time and be a teen again and the only thing i had to worry about was whether or not i was going to homecoming!
But this is what i choose in life so i’m gonna have to suck it up and do what i gotta do. Try and be strong and pull through for my kids. And hope that at one point i can get ahead and stay ahead
Hopefully