Just wanted a lil help

What goes around comes around! is that not what they say? Dont people say that to justify the bad things others do to them? What about the good karma? And the people who do good things? Why does it seem that good karma takes twice as long as bad karma to come back to you?

All i wanted was a little help. My car needs a little work on it, while trying to make sure it is able to get me to and from work i got behind on two bills. Not far only one month sometimes buying food and feeding ur kids is a little more important then a cable bill!

So anyways I thought instead of doing all that i would take out a small personal loan so that i could catch up on the bills and pay for my car to be completely done. I got a co-signer and i had the credit but wasnt able to get it because i didnt make enough money. So i tried my bank wasnt able to get that loan because i havent been at my job for 6months. So bryan tried. The bank didnt approve him because he didnt have direct deposit to his acct and his credit was bad.

So im like okay what to do. So i call my mom and i asked her to see if she could take out a small loan. I told that i needed 500$ to 1000$ thats it. I was going to pay it i have always paid my debts (eventually)

Well she starts going on and on about how she doesnt think she could do it that she would only be able to get 500$ if she could get anything. So i told her thats all i needed so my car could be done. Then she goes on about how well if she does this for me what is she going to do if her car breaks and blah bah blah.

I had to hold my breath it took everything in me not to yell at her. Seriously thats how she wants to play it. When she paid 9000$ for my brothers car! Sends him money everytime he needs something fixed or grocery money or anything! How i didnt hesatate to give her the 800$ i was going to use out of my income tax money to pay a year on my car insurance so that she could pay off a check loan place that she barrowed from so she could pay a lawyer so that my brother could have his misdemeaner exponged from his recored. How she promised that if i gave her that money she would pay for my insurance for the year because it would save her money in the long run yet the last couple month i have paid it because she needed the money. REALLY! Anytime i had extra money i helped her. I bought all her xmas presents one year. And she cant even apply for a 500$ loan for me. Money i would pay back. Something that would not come out of her pocket like everything i gave her did.

I just couldnt stand it So i hurried and got off the phone and continued driving home from work.
When i got here as soon as i walked in the door bryan started in on how he was having issues at work with his mom, and how he was going to transfer back to cleve ave wendys. to get away from her. But he wouldnt tell me exactly what happened.

So i finally drag it out of him and it was the most petty little thing. Im like yaknow what if u would just get another job you wouldnt have these problems! That it was ridiiculus he has been working there since he was 14 and is only making 7.75 an hour. How i work less then he does and still bring home the same!
Well he didnt like that (because it was the truth) and thats why he didnt want to tell me because he knew thats what i was gonna say

Its like yaknow what. i have helped a lot of people i have given and given and i just dont know if i can give anymore. Not when I need something i get cold shoulders. I think from now on im just going to keep my money, my opinions, and anything else needed from me all to my self I may as well be selfish.