12/02/2012

Things have been crazy the past few days. I had a long talk with Jamie about everything going on between us. We cleared up a lot. I told her everything on my mind and she really listened instead of telling me I’m overly emotional because I’m not on my meds [which is kind of true haha.] Things aren’t perfect, but they’re much better. I don’t expect or want perfection. But I can tell that she is really really trying. Things between us have been a million times better. 

However, things in the family have been worse again. Since mom left on her adventure, Kasey and Micah have taken over the house. Dad had basically segregated himself to his room. Micah kept saying nasty things about dad and Rich on facebook. Dad tried to confront Kasey and ask her to talk to Micah about stopping that shit and she went crazy. Kasey kicked Dad out of his own house. Now my mother is having a shit fit about how my dad is just going to leave her with the burden of the house. Kasey is the one who wanted to keep the house .It was all her idea. If Micah hadn’t been on house arrest, they would have been able to sell it. I knew from the get-go that Kasey and Micah wouldn’t be able to afford that house. But they wanted it, so whatever. But now, because she kicked dad out, mom’s pissed that she wont be getting paid. That’s not his fault or his problem anymore, really. She seems to think it was okay for Kasey to do that. I don’t care what happens, that level of disrespect is never okay. 

So now, because Jamie and I are struggling and Dad and Rich are directionless and homeless, we are moving in with them. I have a lot of reservations about this, but it’s all we can do right now. We all need help, so this is the best solution. I just hope that because now we’ll be on equal footing, things will be different. A girl can dream, haha.

This will be my first christmas without Mama D since I knew her. I know I should be more upset about Avo being gone, but as sad as it sounds, I was a million times closer to D. I miss her something fierce. I still cry sometimes.

I guess that’s it for now.