I’m a jerk.

The past two months have been pretty boring, honestly.

I got into a fight with Ernie because I was drunk and wouldn’t drive to his house, which was like a half hour away from where I was. It somehow turned into "you’re with a guy and he’s more important than me, it’s OK." I have no idea where that came from, because we were always always always just fucking. I had feelings and lots of them, but he always kept it on the just fucking level. So to say the least, I was confused. Drunk and confused. And sad. And angry. Bad combination, folks! Anyway, I haven’t spoken to him since then. I tried to call a few times, but he hasn’t answered. It makes me kind of sad. I miss him. But I guess these things happen for a reason. I just wih I knew what that reason was so I could stop being so mad about it.

I got my clit hood pierced. I kind of love it. It’s so fucking cute. Kerri bought it for me for christmas and I bought her ten packs of buy one get one smokes, so she had 20 packs haha. We’re great friends. To answer most people’s initial questions, no I don’t orgasm while I’m walking, no I haven’t gotten it cought on anything, yes it feels good while I’m having sex, and it hurt REALLY intensely for about 3 seconds. Once the jewelry was in, I couldn’t even feel it. I love it so much!

Christmas was supposed to be sucky, but the kids came and saved the day. Dad was out of a job this year, so the pickings were goign to be slim, but I got everyone 5 or 6 things and Kasey got everyone 3 or 4 things and even Richie was able to get people things from his adventures in the Dollar Store. It was super cute. I got Rock Band two because we had so much fun playing the first one and it’s hard to find things that the three of us can do together. I don’t want him to grow up and feel like we hated him or anything, so I’m always trying to find things we can do together and Rock Band fits nicely haha.

I’m casually dating a boy, but I don’t know how well that’s going to work out. He’s nice, but it’s almost… too nice. I can’t even describe it. He always fucking agrees with me, even if I say something blatantly stupid that makes no sense. I’m testing it now, haha. He calls me the fucking SECOND I get out of work and wants to talk for forever. I don’t even get the chance to go to my locker and get my purse and my phone is ringing. I then tell him I’ll text him when I get home. He KNOWS I always eat after work, but when I text him he insists on calling me that very second. He can’t just text me back, noooooo, he has to call and wants to talk while I’m trying to eat my food. And he’s a bad kisser. I’m trying so hard to fix that, but he just doesn’t get it. Boy, you don’t need to eat my face! And his lips are always chapped. It makes me kind of icky in my stomach thinking about it. Also, I had to explain the menstrual cycle to him. When I asked "didn’t you take sex ed in school?" he said "I took advanced chemistry instead." WHAT? What school gives you an option on sex ed? Also, he’s not so awesome in the sack. I’m trying really hard to not break his heart, and work with it, but I don’t know how much longer it’s gonna last. He’s making me a little nuts.

Ugh. I don’t know, I’m done now I guess.