You were a priority, was I an option?

I let you see a side of me that  I don’t show to anyone. Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled. You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, I’m sorry that wasn’t enough." -Across Five Aprils "A Year From Now"
I suggest that you don’t listen to that song unless you want to feel like dying, haha.

He tells me that he "puts me in front of his priorities" and that he shouldn’t do that.
I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve all of this bullshit in my life.
Because honestly, I have to have done SOMETHING to deserve it all.
There has to be a reason.
FUCK.
Everything always seems to be going well and then BAM I’m alone and crying again.
I guess we’re taking a break from talking to eachother for a few days but we’re still dating?
That doesn’t even make sense.
UGH.
Why can’t I catch a fucking break.
Honestly, is it me?
Because I’m starting to think it is.