Tuesday….

Well good morning friends! A girlfriend of mine told me last Friday that I was allowed to cry about the breakup all day Friday (I certainly did) but that once my babies came home on Sunday it was a new me and I was no longer allowed to shed ANY tears…. And I have to say…. I’ve held up to my side of the deal. Friday night AFTER my kiddos left to go to their dads (about 6:30) I cried for a couple hours straight while driving to my aunts. I got to my aunts and had one more cry while I was sharing all the things he said and did to me and my kids with her, and I can honestly say… that was the last time a tear even remotely fell from my face. I knew at some point I’d be “ok” but I never knew it would be so soon. However when you only spend 5 months with someone and you realize again what you realized several times in the relationship (that it isn’t love, Love doesn’t attack and destroy your self worth, love doesn’t tell you it doesn’t care about your feelings etc) I guess it’s a bit easier to let go and move on without him, because you were pretty much alone in the relationship. I came home yesterday to eviction papers on the door for him, which was quite a pleasant site, and they had them backdated lol so he only has until Friday to come get his stuff, if it’s still there then his property because my landlords lol I sold the safe yesterday that I had bought him for Father’s Day…. So at least that’s out of my house. The only other thing to get rid of is a massive all in one printer that he left behind and a king size bed frame that we redid together…. Other than that all of his shit is sitting outside in a giant shed that he had moved over on the property…. However it was a rent to own deal and he hasn’t paid on it …. So I’m not sure how long until they come get it…. But after Friday we can legally have it removed…. So I’m thinking that’s the plan.

there’s a house right beside my mom that belonged to my stepfathers grandmother. She passed away 2 years ago in a nursing home. The house has been sitting for 2 years, built in 1950. My mom asked me if I would like to move there and remodel it… then I’d have no rent to pay anymore and it could be our forever home…. Clearly I want to do it! I love demo and bringing houses back to life. AND that’s where the kiddos always have wanted to be. It needs a roof first and foremost so…. I’m trying to see if someone can bandaid it for now just so that I can get the house livable and then once I’m in it awhile, I’ll replace the roof…. I got a quote for a new roof and it’ll be $6200…. Hopefully this other person who strictly does roof repairs and stops leaks can get it bandaided up for me just so I can attempt to get in there and gut the inside and prepare it for people again lol it’s not terrible, but she def needs some work… clearly I’ll post pics as the process starts. I made a YouTube! And I’ve posted my tiktok stuff on there … well some of it… y’all will have to check it out….  Gennie Astin is my name there….

i used to ask all the time, “it gets better right???” Well now I am able to tell you guys…. IT GETS BETTER EVERY DAY!!