medicine time
The birthday party turned out pretty well! She started crying when she walked through the door. I know she appreciated it all. I have been the first person to ever fool her on a surprise party. I guess because she’s my mom I know what it takes to get her believing something, lol.
I tried registering for my spring classes and that turned out semi badly. I got MOST of the classes I was wanting but not all. In fact everytine I tried to get into a class I NEEDED there weren’t any seats left. Guess its always bad for freshmen, they’re not too sure what to expect. Next year, I’ll be on the ball and get the classes I WANT and NEED. Now, this Sunday I just need to sign up for financial aid so I can attend my spring semester, lol.
Anyway, I got the BC pills…feels really weird knowing I’ll be taking them in a few weeks. Feels like such a grown up thing to do. I guess people always expected me to wait for marriage to have sex. But…I dunno…I don’t plan on getting married for quite some time, and I think its okay if sex is between two consentual people who really care about and love eachother. I was 18 when I had my first kiss and shy of 19 when I lost the neon V. I wont ever regret it. He didn’t pressure me, it was my idea, and he made it pretty special.
I think most girls miss out on that. They’re so eager to catch up with their friends, or please a guy, or do it to keep one..and thats pretty sad. It shouldn’t take that. Two of my friends did that with their bf’s..and after the guys got what they wanted they started messing around on em. One of them purposely got pregnant to keep her boyfriend around. Some coupls…all they have in common is sex. I guess if thats what they want okay..but to me that feels hallow. Pleasure only lasts a little while…how do you fill in the gaps? Its funny how when I am just with him I feel like a school girl in love..but when he holds me or kisses me..or hugs me..I feel like this beautiful woman..I hope that never changes…I hope even when we’re just comofortable together we still have some passion…I don’t think that will really be a problem though…we’re both pretty passionate people…
nothing is terribly new with me…my life is pretty boring right now. I work and go to school and go to school and work…just waiting on a day when I can just hang out…which is sunday…wohoo..no work or school 🙂