Love The Way You Lie…

I love this song. Always thought that Eminem and Rihanna just where belting out the tunes to just me…but then I heard Skylar Grey out her spin on the song and she is definitely singing out my thoughts and feelings…

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright, because I like the way it hurts

I feel like that is all I have been doing for the past 10 years. Just standing there and taking on all the emotional abuse and thinking that what he can give me is the best that I can get and it the pain is all worth it just for those odd few hours and days or happiness.

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that’s alright, because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I often cry out how I feel and what is wrong and he takes it on…well often he will spin it to make it out like I am at fault and to blame…I am the bad one in the relationship. But then there are times when he will get what I am saying and admit his errors…and then a few days later those words are all forgotten…

High off of love drunk from my hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint and I love her the more I suffer
I suffocate and right before I’m about to drown
She resuscitates me, she fucking hates me

The past few days he has been going on about how he feels overworked and as if he has no one to turn to and express his feelings to and just wishes I was there to console him. Like WTF! I am always there for him. I cook for him, when I am shopping I think about what he likes, when he is upset I try and get him to open up and I let him spew it all out to me.

Naa…just heard Eminem rap his lines and this song is so much better with him in it… isn’t life just so much better when you have found that one person…the one person that gets you 100% and you get them and life is just perfect then…

As long as the wrong feels right, it’s like I’m in flight
High off of love drunk from my hate

 Eminem says it perfectly…well raps it perfectly…there is no greater feeling than being ‘high’ on love…or ‘chocolate’ or ‘weed’ – okay Mary J is this strongest thing that I have ever had. He has been ‘Drunk’ and I guess I am just ‘sober’ from my hate of his drunk mood.

Okay I am getting bored with wiring about how I feel and how my husband is drunk and the mess that is our home. I think I am just going to end this son and finish off this post with some happy feelings and news…

In a little under an hour I am off work for 5 whole days and I get to just re-energize and be all smiles and happy. Well on Sat we are going to be child sitting my husband’s nephew…that shall be fun…but for the next 2 days it is all going to be about me…. nails and pedicure tomorrow…maybe I will try and have my hair done…and then gonna burn some fat off at the gym and enjoy some South African Spring!