Sick – Part II

 OK So I hardly spoke to Luke yesterday and when I did towards the end of the evening he got quite wound up and annoyed with me…

He called me and shouted down the phone at me out of the blue… turns out he’d rang me several times during the day and I hadn’t answered and he thought I was just ignoring him after the night before..  We chatted and realized my phone not only had never rang but also  never showed ANY missed calls either. He was ringing my old mobile number which had been switched off a few days earlier. So once that drama had been sorted we got talking about the night before…   He asked if I wanted to talk about the night before. i told him he wouldn’t like what I was going to say. So I told him about the people I’d told about my lumps and I told him that not one (including him) had bothered to ask about what I’d found, how I was or how I was feeling….  at that point I broke down.  I couldn’t hold it in any longer.

So after I’d calmed down and finally was able to speak again Luke had broken down realizing what he’d done (or not done) and so I then had to calm him down.   I was supposed to be visiting him on Thursday night through to Monday but due to Doc’s appointment on Friday I’m not going up till Friday/sat or sun (Haven’t decided) unless I can get a cancellation from the doc’s…

So I’ve managed to get an appointment today at 4 and Luke still hasn’t asked…  I just don’t feel like he cares all that much…..

I’m not impressed….  feeling alone again in this health scare…